Question Three

"Do you think you are the same person in 

life as you are in your head?"

Is 'absolutely not' enough to answer this one?  I'm guessing that you'll want me to expand on that, huh?  

I think that anyone answering this would have the same answer.  I find it hard to believe that anyone could answer this with a 'yes'.  For so many reasons, I have to say no.  I try to be the best person I can.  I do that for myself but I also do that for everyone in my life.  I want to be a great mother; one that teaches, comforts and makes my daughter's eyes light up.  I want to be a great friend; one that remembers to call when it's important and also when it's not, one that remembers a special occasion, one that holds your hand and one that laughs with you. I want to be a great employee; one that gets the job done, exceeds expectations and one that is reliable.

When I look at all of these things, I realize, I want to be the one that anyone can count on.  I don't want to fail.... for me, but more, I don't want to fail the people that rely on me to be the strong one.  

I'm getting better at this.  In the last year, I have finally learned that sometimes, it is ok to be weak.  It is ok to ask for help and it's ok to allow others to be to me what I have been to them so often.  In this leg of my journey, I am listening more and in doing that, I am learning how open some people are.  It's inspiring.  I have been told how I am viewed by them and it has opened my eyes more than I thought possible.  It has allowed me to find strength in some qualities and strive to smooth out the rough parts of the qualities I don't care for. 

In all of this, I know I will never be perfect but I feel blessed to have surrounded myself with amazing people. Many of which I don't see or speak with often enough, but every single one has influenced me and have been a source of positivity.

I am a different person to everyone that knows me....in whatever capacity....but in the end, I know that I am strong, full of love and able to laugh at myself...... and those qualities are hopefully seen by everyone.